Been awhile, huh

So. 6, 7 months later. Here I am again. It's been a crazy time. Blitz of nothing and craziness and fast forward here I am at new crossroads, new decisions, new thoughts. But then, I've never been terribly original with them.

So. I went for a holiday. And as I stood in line at the airport security trying my best not to cry (but kind of half failing and half succeeding), the question that I receive rather often came to my mind. 'So, what do you miss about the US now that you are back in Singapore?' and I know what I answer to finally be true. It's the people, my friends. Who make my world. Who I can just be me and it's ok. I feel ok knowing that they can get on my nerves or I can get on theirs... But it's ok! cos we can loll around the room on a big joined-up bed laughing and talking (or not talking) anyway somehow feeling 17, 18, 19 again. And that while we have all changed since then, the comfortable parts remain the same.

I guess I could be better at talking. Or asking important questions. But I'm still learning how to do that. I've never been a talker but I think (and am told) that's one of the things that piss people off. :p well. I try. Sometimes harder than others. And my friends halfway around the world. You make me want to. :)

Cheerio you all and I'll see you when I next see you. I don't know if things will be the same forever or if it's just for now. But I love you. Keep going. YOLO, right?

Manic weeks and holiday nostalgia

Last week seems like a year ago! MAD.

So I was in Bali last week for my (seemingly now) annual holiday with a hippo friend. Yes. A hippo friend. 'twas awesome of course. Whale of a time, even though it was raining cars and dogs for half of it. But instead of getting down about it, we crept into the most heavenly of beds and zzed the rain away. :)

Anyhoo. Now that i'm back, have spent this week running around and rushing for all sorts of stuff. Mainly this event that's happening today. We've finished an entire morning of talks (and I got up at 6am oog) and now heading for excursion. Hee learning journey!

But you know what, I shall enjoy my lone-ness at this seat for now before I have to be sociable again. And catch some shut eye. And. Dream of last week. Just a week ago. Love.

Weekend getaway.

It's only 3.5 hours outside Singapore, but it could be years ago. All the small shophouses and night market stalls and the buzz in Melaka is refreshing. It feels familiar... But it's not. At least, not in my recent memories. There are remnants in my little city, but slowly disappearing.

Anyway it was good to get away w my work buddies and not have to think about work. I'll be having a nice dose of southeast Asia for the rest of this year. After this trip... Penang for official team building trip! Then Bali w Wei. Hmm, where should I go with my parents (need to use my elder care leave). Or I could just nua at home. Hee.

Ok enjoying my last couple of hours here. :)

And I set fire to the rain

Today, big boss said: 'someone important died last week'. To which, half of us went '...who?'

I guess this is part of him trying to take people's feedback seriously and share more, communicate more. He said that if you didn't have much time left, how would you change the way you live your life? This probably made him think about his own battle w cancer years ago.

Someone remarked later that another (disliked) person should have a near-death experience so he would 'wake up his ideas' and not be so arrogant. While not for wishing ill of others, perhaps we all should do a bit of reevaluating.

At church these 2 months, couples have been taking turns to chair the worship segment. The theme is trust, and we've heard many difficult stories shared as though in a small group of friends, when in reality it's vulnerability to hundreds of people. A few have talked about having special needs kids. Watching with difficulty as their kids battle on. Seizures, medication, painfully slow progress. But even if their eyes are filled with tears and can only see the present, their eyes of faith seek out God every step of the way. And they see Him clearly at the end of the road. If only every vision was so clear.

Looking at these people, ordinary people with lives that have been made extraordinary... They have stories to tell. Their lives a novel worth more than a quick browse at the bookstore. What's my story? More whinging. More mediocrity. Like a bad self help book. Without the help. Just self. There's more to this and I kind of want to get there.

I don't know if we all need a near death experience. Maybe we just need a little knock on the head.

Here's to a knock. See you on the other side.

Mobile blogging

Hmm. How do I feel about this? Now I get to rant about things in my day as and when they happen. When there are too many words to fit inside a tweet.

Curious. This social media thing. Perhaps it will end in me never talking to people again. That sometimes feels like it would be nice. But thankfully, only sometimes.

Anyhoo. Things are happening. And decisions are needing to be made. Sigh. Wishing you don't have to grow up doesn't seem to work... Seeing how I've been wishing for that for several years now.

summertime, not exactly.

15 minutes of work can really seem like SUCH a drag when you're desperately trying to hold on to the last few moments of your weekend. haha :) so.. in view of procrastination.. to the interwebs. for waste-time-tactics.

i was on holiday down under recently. and it was a BALLER time with the Tan ladies. haha. relatives on the broader geographical scale (somewhere along the line i'm sure) and of course, friends. i know someone will hate me but i took a photo of the pair. and had to share. i will try... to blog more, and get it pushed to further down the page somewhere. cheers.

but here's to awesome holidays, and wonderfully lazy days!

of old photos and squash games.

the interwebs has everything on it. great for inept people. insta-feelings.