fail week.

i'm not a careful person. i've always been careless. with math sums in school, with writing papers, with my words sometimes i know. i think, this might be my undoing. how does one 'learn' to be more careful and attentive to details? i don't like thinking about details.. i don't need details and i just want the gist of things.

i need to be careful in my job. when i write reports and presentations and stuff. and i'm not. oops. hur. new week, new drive, new everything. i get to start again. and.. perhaps this week i shan't keep messing up. maybe this week i'll work faster and better. maybe this week, i will discover something i'm good at.

today though, while contemplating posting something after a while, (oh, happy new year by the way, everyone.) i browsed through the archives. i like doing that. cos i forget stuff alot too. what it was like, how i was, marveling at the number of entries from 5 in the morning... :) anyway, i always find myself, reminded here on my own blog, while writing outside this blog, while thinking, while... thankful. that i'm ok.

thinking about the six months of nothing much.. reminds me how good God is. and then, i'm happy again. or at least, not as bogged down. i've got a bunch of verses on my desk.. that remind me.
'But You, O Lord, are a shield for me,
My glory, and the One who lifts up my head.' ps 3:3

i sat at my computer on friday.. and while my report was being torn apart (not literally ala primary school scary teacher style) for not being quite up to standard, i thought... 'chin up, you know it's learning time. and technically, you did ask for a a challenge.' haha.

but after fail week, i am ready to rest, recharge and do my v best (again) this week. :) i mean, He's there. and that's.. really kind of all i need.