YOWZA!

I WANNA WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS..

haha i like. i'm so happy that christmas is round the corner. i spend all year waiting for christmas to come it's wonderful. :)

i had a good time in boston..but i feel sick thinking about the amount of money i spent. granted it was for stuff i needed to keep warm so i don't come home as a block of ice and wait to thaw, but still i don't think i've EVER spent so much money in a period of two days. no more buying of anything anymore. nothing! but maybe food. haha.

so it snowed on thanksgiving day! well. a little anyway. heh but the night/morning i was talking to smelly, umm. tuesday night/wednesday morning? it snowed. at 3 in the morning. i went downstairs in my shorts and t-shirt and slippers to see it. haha i know it would have been v swakoo but i mean come on.. the FIRST snowfall! it wasn't a long one. it lasted half an hour. but the snowflakes were SO big. heh. it made me happy. at 3 in the morning. :) i stayed out there for all of ONE minute. haha. i mean it WAS cold. haha. but nice. i remember when i was a kid we put up a wishlist on our christmas tree. one of the things i wished for was a white christmas. in singapore. haha. cute kid. now i know it won't ever, and if it does it would be extremely environmentally-worrying. but it's cool i guess. who's coming skiing w me next christmas? :)

so here's me and my boston-buddies. haha we're all a bit loopy. think long day of shopping and a day-end photoshoot. haha.


ok so that's enough. haha ok you can't actually see how long my hair is getting at the back. but it's LONG. take my word for it. long for me anyway. ok. i'm gone. hope everyone's doing ok.

thanksgiving

so tetris is finally over and thanksgiving break is here. it's fantastic. i've got about 2 million things i can thank God for it's so amazing. it's going to start snowing soon i think. it's cold. but i'm happy. on to the next computer science project! but first, HOLIDAY! haha. i love holidays. don't you too? i think most of the exams in singapore are ending soon, hope things are alright with you guys. take care yeap? :)

oh my i think i'm going to sink from pleasure from the thought that tmr i'm going to have real chinese food. my first for a REALLY long time i'm going to dream of it tonight. ok byebye.

give thanks!

killing me softly.

die. tetris. die.

oh happy day.

i think computer science is slowly breaking me down mentally. it's midnight. and i'm still in the lab. where i have been for the past 4 days. i will never play tetris again.



don't wake me i plan on sleeping in...

why do they call it the SunLab when it's not sunny. it doesn't even have one window. plus there's no sun at midnight anyway.

when you're stuck in a cloud

WOOOOZA. haha. so the weekend's here. again. and suddenly i'm left wondering, where in the world did my week go. or my month. or my year. heh. but well, nice to be free (even for a few hours before i have to chiong comp sci.) hey thanks for the brands essence! though i don't actually drink it and i bet even if i did i wouldn't like it. i know it smells ghastly. but i get the point of it. and it's nice to know i haven't really dropped off the singapore map. thanks ed.. and i know my mom's right it's just one of those tiffs that i know will happen cos it's valid, but still upsets me. oh well. anyhoo i think now that's blown over.. and i have to go buy warm clothes. it's SO cold today and i was severely under-dressed. i think my head almost froze. haha so i decided to come home and layer up before heading out again. haha.

i was walking somewhere just now and the moment was just right. how the light hit the red leaves on the trees and above the moon had already risen in the blue sky. it's times like these when i take time to look around me that i well, remember why i chose to study in new england. fall is just so breath-takingly beautiful. that it even makes up for the CRAZY(and when i say crazy i mean CRAZY) new england weather. one day rain one day shine one day 20 deg the next 3 deg. it's nuts. but nuttily beautiful. i feel sad for those who live their lives and nv see it this beautiful. but i also know not everyone's as fortunate as me and i give thanks.

so i'm going to go to boston for thanksgiving. a friend's family friend is going to let us stay in a 2 bedroom apt for the week.. he's in real estate. how sweet is that, tell me. woah.. haha PLUS he'll come up and get us! from here so we don't have to squeeze with the ppl leaving for home and holidays. haha. thanksgiving indeed huh.

you know when it comes to being lucky, we always believe we have the worst luck. like murphy's law, whatever it always comes back to the worst possible situation ever. but it's not so bad huh. haha. :)

KABISH.

so it's been awhile. and i would love to say i have been busy.. and i have actually. come to think of it. haha. but i think it's mainly cos i haven't had much to spew onto this little page of mine. it's been a relatively peaceful week. apart from a tiff with my mom. but oh well. these things happen. and i know that it's just cos she's worried i'm wasting my time (and her money) here and studying nonsense. which honestly, i think is a valid concern. it's just i feel.. this need to justify myself you know? i feel...(and of course i just can't find the word) maligned? no that's not it. ok i'm not in the most coherent of moods. but what AM i going to do with the rest of my life? i think from the way her email reply went.. i'm going to have to decide BY the time i get back home in december and have my entire life mapped out. i don't know what to do with myself.

last year when i was applying to college, mr ng was commenting how i don't have direction in my life. and he was right. he is right. in terms of my career/academics/extra curricular anyway. he said that if i had more direction and i found something to study that i really liked, i could have done so much better. i think so too. though sometimes i think that just to console myself. it's a consolation. i think that sounds kind of pathetic. haha. but well.

do you think one can get by life without ever finding something one really likes, that one can apply oneself to? pretty sad existence though i would say.

i can't say my life has no meaning because it really does. but it's hard to find it in something i wanna do for the rest of my life, i mean COME on. i can't even decide on what i wanna study. talk about minor problems(in view of bigger issues). hoho. anyway i'm going to spend the rest of the semester thinking about this. lest (AUW) i be blown away by the mother's wrath when i get back to singapore. haha.

anyway thankfully the week is over. next week is going to be SO busy. i've got to program tetris. and study for a geo exam. so pray for me! i think i'll survive though. i somehow always manage to. heh. i'm a tough cookie! (actually, why is being a tough cookie good. tough cookies don't even taste good. they're hard!) anyway i'm off. friday night was not made for sitting in my room and blogging. haha. loser. :)