KABISH.
so it's been awhile. and i would love to say i have been busy.. and i have actually. come to think of it. haha. but i think it's mainly cos i haven't had much to spew onto this little page of mine. it's been a relatively peaceful week. apart from a tiff with my mom. but oh well. these things happen. and i know that it's just cos she's worried i'm wasting my time (and her money) here and studying nonsense. which honestly, i think is a valid concern. it's just i feel.. this need to justify myself you know? i feel...(and of course i just can't find the word) maligned? no that's not it. ok i'm not in the most coherent of moods. but what AM i going to do with the rest of my life? i think from the way her email reply went.. i'm going to have to decide BY the time i get back home in december and have my entire life mapped out. i don't know what to do with myself.
last year when i was applying to college, mr ng was commenting how i don't have direction in my life. and he was right. he is right. in terms of my career/academics/extra curricular anyway. he said that if i had more direction and i found something to study that i really liked, i could have done so much better. i think so too. though sometimes i think that just to console myself. it's a consolation. i think that sounds kind of pathetic. haha. but well.
do you think one can get by life without ever finding something one really likes, that one can apply oneself to? pretty sad existence though i would say.
i can't say my life has no meaning because it really does. but it's hard to find it in something i wanna do for the rest of my life, i mean COME on. i can't even decide on what i wanna study. talk about minor problems(in view of bigger issues). hoho. anyway i'm going to spend the rest of the semester thinking about this. lest (AUW) i be blown away by the mother's wrath when i get back to singapore. haha.
anyway thankfully the week is over. next week is going to be SO busy. i've got to program tetris. and study for a geo exam. so pray for me! i think i'll survive though. i somehow always manage to. heh. i'm a tough cookie! (actually, why is being a tough cookie good. tough cookies don't even taste good. they're hard!) anyway i'm off. friday night was not made for sitting in my room and blogging. haha. loser. :)
last year when i was applying to college, mr ng was commenting how i don't have direction in my life. and he was right. he is right. in terms of my career/academics/extra curricular anyway. he said that if i had more direction and i found something to study that i really liked, i could have done so much better. i think so too. though sometimes i think that just to console myself. it's a consolation. i think that sounds kind of pathetic. haha. but well.
do you think one can get by life without ever finding something one really likes, that one can apply oneself to? pretty sad existence though i would say.
i can't say my life has no meaning because it really does. but it's hard to find it in something i wanna do for the rest of my life, i mean COME on. i can't even decide on what i wanna study. talk about minor problems(in view of bigger issues). hoho. anyway i'm going to spend the rest of the semester thinking about this. lest (AUW) i be blown away by the mother's wrath when i get back to singapore. haha.
anyway thankfully the week is over. next week is going to be SO busy. i've got to program tetris. and study for a geo exam. so pray for me! i think i'll survive though. i somehow always manage to. heh. i'm a tough cookie! (actually, why is being a tough cookie good. tough cookies don't even taste good. they're hard!) anyway i'm off. friday night was not made for sitting in my room and blogging. haha. loser. :)
posted by glenda at 10:41 PM
3 Comments:
dear nana,press on.ah ma lupp you.and ah ma is happie cos nana coming back soon.yay.-hug tight tight-
oh glenda darling...
you'll find it somehow..
im sorry to say this but i feel your mum's concern is valid...
dunno if this is one of those comments i should not reiterate. like if you said 'i think im fat' then i shouldnt go 'i think you're fat too' kind of comments.
oh well... :)
we love yu dear glenda. come back to us. we miss you at sunday school.
*gives you brands chicken essence*
on behalf of t. chiew yen. she gave them to us last sunday to encourage us to press on and work hard in our studies. you deserve one too.
ed
ablend,
sidepoint: i saw your mommy at raffles city this afternoon.
i can't wait for you to come back!!!
your one and only,
abelle
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