mirror properties.

This week has been fun! I got to forget (conveniently) that I work now. Plus, learn how to enjoy a warm Christmas again. Fuzzy feelings all around!

2009 is coming to an end. As I sat this morning in church, I thought about how quick the year has zoomed by. Last year seems like.. ages ago. Last Christmas.. I gave you my heart. Actually, I hung out in Mexico. With the 'rents. And the bean went to France after Christmas and and and.. I was still in school. With everyone. And then! I finished school, and wrote this really boring paper so I could graduate and then I had a v pompous graduation! And I had fun in between too. Some days I play Bon Jovi's Livin' on a Prayer and remember singing my heart out on the dance floor. and screaming. haha. At least I remember it. And then. There were nasty applications and doldrums and the butcher and the moving. That was unhappy. But then.. it turned out good! Sorta. I like writing to friends and knowing that I have friends on the other side of the planet who love me! It's a pity the world wasn't smaller, but it's ok I think. And I have new friends too. And well, a job too. That helps the content-ometer some. (it's been good, if you're wondering. it will get busy. and some stuff is hard, but so far it's exciting. my colleagues don't believe me when I give these somewhat-PC non-extreme comments about my work. But then, they don't know that.. that's kind of what I'm like.) I haven't forgotten Providence. I remember Ade's amaze/amusement about the name of the city. Cos it's really God's providence. That brought me there. And that has brought me home. And teaches me that... well, He's got this great global ops. And also that He loves me and will never leave me. It's the kind of promise that feels like a nice thick blanket that you can curl up and fall asleep in every night, no matter where in you are.

Anyhoo. I crown 2009 the Best Worst Year Ever. I doubt I'll forget it anytime soon. See you guys on the other side. Happy New Year. Pots of cheng tng and love.

jesus loves the little children...

but i don't.

i've never found a way to express my dislike for children. granted some are cute, and i will one day play with my brother's kids. but i think today i can articulate the reason why i will never have kids. they make me angry. and not many things make me angry.

i feel terrible about saying this. because.. it makes me seem like a bad person. (well, that's true too. God and i, we're working on that.) but i sat next to a badly behaving boy and his mom today, and my blood was boiling. and if it didn't prick my conscience the way it did and there were no social norms and there were no consequences and children were more like bugs than people, i would have grabbed the kid and.. i dont know. at least smacked him. for being rude and disobedient and really irritating.

getting angry is such a waste of good emotions. of course by now i've forgotten the anger and it sounds a little silly. but i thought i'd write it out before i forgot why i don't like kids again.