kudos to me!
so. starting out some place new is often always the hardest thing. and i have finally got off my big behind to come out of the ulu world that is university (even though this place is far from being remote compared to some other places in the states that i have had the (dis)pleasure of visiting.) and say hello to everyone.
it's hard i guess, starting out somewhere, anywhere. there are friends to make and decisions to make and things to buy and convictions to stick to, i think it's overall an extremely tiring process. but you never stop. you can't. you stop and you're just left behind whirling in everyone's dust. and you can't blame anyone cos you stopped. so i guess coughing and spluttering and sounding like a fish being fried in a frying pan (oh i miss singapore food so much.) while trying to keep up with things is the way to go. and there's no other way. keep it up keep it up!
haha well. all's good in my little bubble i do love this cos everything's just so new, like sleeping in newly washed sheets, it's fresh. out of the doldrums of monotonous education and into the bright sunlight! honestly, it's a little overwhelming, the freedom that you get here, you choose EVERYTHING by yourself and it's just... not the norm for me. or for anyone else for that matter. i guess, the people who came up with this certainly didn't think that it would also result in the pushing of one towards *shudder adulthood. funny. liberal learning.. it worked out very well certainly. out of the frying pan and into the fire. you think by scraping any general education requirements that you're ridding yourself of order and all the 'real world' situations when you just HAVE to do something because you just have to. but in reality, you're gaining the idea of what it means to be responsible for what you wanna take, what you wanna be, as you sit down to seriously choose which direction your semester is going to take. and that in itself, is such an adult thing to do.
oh well, it's inevitable that we'll all grow up and grow old and one day we'll get to that point, that particular temperature, where you just cant deny the fact that you can no longer be a kid anymore. it's a slap to the face, when you realise that you are just extending your childhood by remaining in school. there are people out there, nineteen years of age, raising their own families and living there adult life, taking care of another life. and here i am, almost nineteen, learning how to do my own laundry, living off my parents, and still feeling like i'm only 16 (because in reality the only difference in my life from then till now is the passing of the years.). it's depressing, really. but i have to live with it cos i have no choice. and it's a good non-option: sitting back and living off someone. sooner or later i'll take charge of my life, but till then, no point turning my head inside out trying to fit it the right way round. i'll get there someday, i'm sure of it.
anyhoo. hello to all of you i hope everyone's doing ok back in sunny singapore. it's starting to get nice and cool here in providence (oh i just love the name of this place.) finally and soon it'll be cold. so you guys get some sun for me! ;) have a good one guys.
it's hard i guess, starting out somewhere, anywhere. there are friends to make and decisions to make and things to buy and convictions to stick to, i think it's overall an extremely tiring process. but you never stop. you can't. you stop and you're just left behind whirling in everyone's dust. and you can't blame anyone cos you stopped. so i guess coughing and spluttering and sounding like a fish being fried in a frying pan (oh i miss singapore food so much.) while trying to keep up with things is the way to go. and there's no other way. keep it up keep it up!
haha well. all's good in my little bubble i do love this cos everything's just so new, like sleeping in newly washed sheets, it's fresh. out of the doldrums of monotonous education and into the bright sunlight! honestly, it's a little overwhelming, the freedom that you get here, you choose EVERYTHING by yourself and it's just... not the norm for me. or for anyone else for that matter. i guess, the people who came up with this certainly didn't think that it would also result in the pushing of one towards *shudder adulthood. funny. liberal learning.. it worked out very well certainly. out of the frying pan and into the fire. you think by scraping any general education requirements that you're ridding yourself of order and all the 'real world' situations when you just HAVE to do something because you just have to. but in reality, you're gaining the idea of what it means to be responsible for what you wanna take, what you wanna be, as you sit down to seriously choose which direction your semester is going to take. and that in itself, is such an adult thing to do.
oh well, it's inevitable that we'll all grow up and grow old and one day we'll get to that point, that particular temperature, where you just cant deny the fact that you can no longer be a kid anymore. it's a slap to the face, when you realise that you are just extending your childhood by remaining in school. there are people out there, nineteen years of age, raising their own families and living there adult life, taking care of another life. and here i am, almost nineteen, learning how to do my own laundry, living off my parents, and still feeling like i'm only 16 (because in reality the only difference in my life from then till now is the passing of the years.). it's depressing, really. but i have to live with it cos i have no choice. and it's a good non-option: sitting back and living off someone. sooner or later i'll take charge of my life, but till then, no point turning my head inside out trying to fit it the right way round. i'll get there someday, i'm sure of it.
anyhoo. hello to all of you i hope everyone's doing ok back in sunny singapore. it's starting to get nice and cool here in providence (oh i just love the name of this place.) finally and soon it'll be cold. so you guys get some sun for me! ;) have a good one guys.
posted by glenda at 7:10 PM
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hello nana.ah ma loves you so much and misses you a lot.sorrie i can't get the sun for you,ynoe how much i hate the sun.haha.but i'll do it in spirit.I WILL GO VISIT YOU,I PROMISE.cos then you'll have the pleasure of shopping with me and it's very very very fun.haha.hokay.
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