monday blues, sunday happies.

i'll eat my words. it's SO hot today. and very sunny too. i think im going to go swim it's too hot. plus i feel very lazy and unfit, after having not done any exercise for AGES. hahah. well if walking to class back and forth everyday doesn't count for something i don't know what does. ;)

starting a new week today. and ive got the monday blues. ok but im hanging on. and i know everyone hates mondays, but i just thought i'd express myself. starting the engine has never been so hard, you know? it's like i've totally lost the mood to study. completely. haha. im behind in almost all my readings! but i finally started getting my act together starting saturday.cos i have a feeling that the slack-the-whole-way-then-cram-very-hard-for-exams method might not work so well here. haha. (a small voice in my head starts to whine: but i've never studied any other way! i don't know how!) oh well. knew that i would find challenge here right? one of the Cs that Pastor gave to us before we left. even in the smallest things that i should have probably done in singapore too. but honestly. it's something to see as a opportunity to discipline myself, and that's important. and i have the confidence! that i will overcome! (ok it's sounds entirely over-dramatic but it's true!)

i was talking to Pastor Eric at family group yesterday (it's like a branch-off of the church and the university fellowship) umm.... like sunday school! but at night. and i was just mentioning that i feel so bad that my parents are spending such humongous potloads of money sending me here. but he just kind of helped me to put things in perspective a little. i mean i know that it's really God's blessings that have brought me here, and have given me the chance to take my time and not be beholden to any organisations, or having to pay back any student loans and stuff, but i've always felt bad about it. he said, instead of feeling bad, why not feel grateful/thankful for this? and it's true. like i'd imagine that a thankful heart would enable me to be a stellar student! (haha no they don't actually use stellar here, i'm just in a weird mood.) like studying not only to glorify God, but to thank Him for His blessings upon me. hmm. yeah so it was a bit of a slap in the face that i had been so focussed on something that was the opposite of what i should have been thinking about. and you know apart from being a little mbrssed, i'm kinda relieved. somehow. i don't try to explain what i feel. feelings are too.... ambiguous to describe anything properly.

yeah so i'm going to have to go to the bookstore to see if one of my books has arrived, and then i gotta get to class. hope everyone's doing fine! drop me a comment or an email to say hi! :) take care ok?

back into the hothothothothothot sun. haha i'm such a singaporean, always complaining about the weather. if it's not too hot it's too cold. haha. ok bye now!