what kind of name is antebellum?

Yesterday as I was swimming I gave myself a pep talk abt buckling down to study (AUP). Cos it's getting to that almost last resort stage where... I really won't finish. So I picked up from where I left off... and as I sat there, book on table, earphones in, concentrating hard.. my mind wandered to a land far far away. I thought of the quiet green.

It's April now and the flowers must be blooming and spreading their pollen in places they shouldn't be. And sometimes, just sometimes... the world seems way too big.

There are strange pictures of a girl who looks like me on fb. It's strange. an out of body experience. Although I'm very sure if I was born way back then.. I probably wouldn't look like that. Same heart though.

I'm so tired. goodnight, world. good morning, world.