but what of the wretched hollow.

so. the world just keeps on spinning. days sort of blend together, I'm studying hard and I think getting somewhere. I think I'll be able to face the exam having tried, at least. Cos the mantra is always, try your best. when i study like this, the last place i want to be is in the office. or at a client engagement course (which I'm at for the rest of the week). Cos my mind... it cant focus on so many things! If it wants to study, it wants to study and do the best darn job at studying... and not have to worry about working. And well, if it wants to work, then.. it doesn't want to study. because, well work can take up almost all the time i have.

plus it just feels wrong to study without a wall of windows and nothing but sky outside beckoning you to come play. some days i miss it.

so this is what it's like. to 'settle' into the pace of work. I am getting pastier and pastier everyday. and i can feel myself getting boring. HA. like it's the extra weight that you put on.. i'm getting heavier. w boringness. Not that I try hard not to be... it's just easier to be boring. You know how as a kid you don't understand why people get old and get unfun? I know now how one gets unfun. you dont have time or the energy to be fun. to find the fun. this is sad. because also, there's almost no one to blame.

maybe i'll be less boring after my exam.

I'm very excited about the end of June and going to new places and humptydumpty plopping in Singaland! I just wish I could take leave off life. and just... concentrate on playing for a little bit. Which I am doing. hur. I just want to not have to think about other things. Just one thing at a time please!

HOKAY. whinefest is over. Please return to your seats for the second half of the show. It promises to wow the audience with sensational showmanship. It WILL be, above all, a fun show. Promise. Ooh, time is going to pass so quick, I'd better start getting ready for the fun. :D

toothpaste tubes squeezed out love.