building blocks of faith
some weeks past by really quick and some past by reallllllllly slow. thankfully this week was a fast one. haha. i think it's been a good week on the whole. i'm still surviving, still enjoying, not sick yet. honestly, i'm literally AFRAID to fall sick here. i don't know, but it's a big thing for me, cos usually when i get sick, i'm just TOTALLY out of it. i mean, i don't get sick very often, but when i do, it really knocks me out COMPLETELY. ok i'm just expressing myself. i'm not sick and i don't think i will be for awhile. i feel healthy. haha. (so i'm weird like this, sue me.)
just got back from like a Christian fellowship group thing. you know, what actually bugs me (in a good way) is that i have, i actually have, too many to choose from. i mean, i feel relatively comfortable in all of them! so how do you choose? there are like 2 on friday nights. haha. one's like a more... casual one, focussing on evangelism and stuff, so it's not heavy stuff you know? it reminds me of YPG back home. the other is like, in groups, discussing like, typical first-year problems,how to deal with them and stuff. and they're different and i can't compare! haha. it's funny how things work out like that.
it's true though, that it's like having a family away from home, when you get together with people who share the same beliefs as you. it's like you know each other already at a particular level and i feel a little more at ease than i would if it were any other university group. and i don't feel like i'm alone.
some nights, it's hard to keep up with my spritual walk when i have so many things to do; pressing things like homework due the morning of the next day (which should of course, have been done the day before this). or when i get back at 2 in the morning and i just want to crash. it's bad cos i know that they're just excuses, nothing more. i'm old enough to know when i'm creating excuses, and when i'm not. you know when you're younger, you just lie to yourself and you don't even recognise that you're just giving excuses? well i've grown past that already. i've grown up to see that each day is like putting a buiding block into a jenga set. facing temptation, and overcoming allows you to put up a block. if you fail that day, you give in, a block is taken off.
how many days have i had to take off a block from the stack (or stump more like.)? too many days we fail. too many days we let God down. but what's amazing is that we get a new chance EVERYDAY to replace that block and built upon it! how often is it that we get chance after chance after chance to make things right? can i take that step to make things right?
what is another day, if not another chance to turn your life around?
so i press on. i know each day brings new challenges and sometimes we fail. we fail alot of times. but you know what? i'm going to keep trying to build this. i will build it. because i refuse to give in. i won't.
we struggle. but it's good that we struggle; struggling means that we're ALIVE.
just got back from like a Christian fellowship group thing. you know, what actually bugs me (in a good way) is that i have, i actually have, too many to choose from. i mean, i feel relatively comfortable in all of them! so how do you choose? there are like 2 on friday nights. haha. one's like a more... casual one, focussing on evangelism and stuff, so it's not heavy stuff you know? it reminds me of YPG back home. the other is like, in groups, discussing like, typical first-year problems,how to deal with them and stuff. and they're different and i can't compare! haha. it's funny how things work out like that.
it's true though, that it's like having a family away from home, when you get together with people who share the same beliefs as you. it's like you know each other already at a particular level and i feel a little more at ease than i would if it were any other university group. and i don't feel like i'm alone.
some nights, it's hard to keep up with my spritual walk when i have so many things to do; pressing things like homework due the morning of the next day (which should of course, have been done the day before this). or when i get back at 2 in the morning and i just want to crash. it's bad cos i know that they're just excuses, nothing more. i'm old enough to know when i'm creating excuses, and when i'm not. you know when you're younger, you just lie to yourself and you don't even recognise that you're just giving excuses? well i've grown past that already. i've grown up to see that each day is like putting a buiding block into a jenga set. facing temptation, and overcoming allows you to put up a block. if you fail that day, you give in, a block is taken off.
how many days have i had to take off a block from the stack (or stump more like.)? too many days we fail. too many days we let God down. but what's amazing is that we get a new chance EVERYDAY to replace that block and built upon it! how often is it that we get chance after chance after chance to make things right? can i take that step to make things right?
what is another day, if not another chance to turn your life around?
so i press on. i know each day brings new challenges and sometimes we fail. we fail alot of times. but you know what? i'm going to keep trying to build this. i will build it. because i refuse to give in. i won't.
we struggle. but it's good that we struggle; struggling means that we're ALIVE.
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