pooped out but happy

so. it was a crazy week. like really crazy i think i have lost all semblance of normalhood. haha. but i was up to my ears (as opposed to only wading in it with bare feet?) in work. and you know how it is when it's as if you are just being controlled by your work? like you live sleep breathe work? haha i know most people can't imagine me as the type. ;) just to dispell everyone's thoughts that i have become this typical singaporean stressball.. i thankfully didn't. i calmly finished it. haha it just sucks to have so much work. what tested me was really this computer science project that i had and i just couldn't do it. i spent at least 5 hours in the lab every day till 2 am working on it for an entire week and i still couldn't finish it. haha i just we now all know what glenda TOTALLY doesn't have a knack for. in addition to humanities. haha. but i'm glad all that's over.

i actually ended the week on a fantastic note though. went to a intervarsity fall retreat in new hampshire with RUF (this christian fellowship group i go to). and it was just a real breath of fresh air from the hectic-ness. (haha) it was a really really pretty campsite with lodges and everything. (think summer camp in the movies) yeah and the theme was 'justification'. i think the largest message i took back was that we should not be driven by guilt or nor should we let it control the way we approach God. He sent His Son down so that we could be justified and reconciled with God. continually thinking that i'm too unworthy to approach God and that i should try to work out some kinks out on my own before i can be a bit more worthy to ask for help is not something humble or anything, it just means that i think i'm above Jesus' redemption. He rescued us from sin and guilt so we could live reflecting His completely blameless life, instead of shying away from God when we sin continually. God knows that we fail. that's no reason to stop asking for help and going to Him for forgiveness. oh well i don't know if that made sense to anyone but me here but i just thought i'd let everyone know what i took back. i miss you guys in Bethany so much! even though the people in my church here are really nice too it's just not the same as home. :) happy belated birthday ed! and ryan too! haha. and an advanced one to mel. let her know yeah? :)

so. i would post pictures. but i was lazy and didn't take any. we hiked though. i thought it was going to be a nice stroll in the woods. we like climbed a mountain. haha. ok it was 951 metres up. which isn't really a mountain. but it's high. :( and i was v tired. funny thing is i'm not really aching THAT much. :) but it was still easier than backpacking for 8 hours though, i must say. it was a 2 hour hike up and 1+ hours down i think. i think i do crazy things. well it's not my fault i don't like running in the gym. :)

i hope things are going alright in singapore. it's getting superbly cold here. and it's only the start of fall. :) take care everyone. you know how much i worry.


i dream of a perfect world.